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  • unfucking the internet #8: who am i?

    Well I have started to curve my shopping a little. Just a bit. My Amazon and Etsy carts are still full with shit, but I am hitting buy a little less. So that’s progress.

    I am caught up in this cycle of identity creation and “being authentic” and the process of consumption that goes a long with it. I need to re-focus on creation over consumption. There is a hard limit on the amount of authenticity can be bought, anyway. Performance isn’t participation.

    Eventually it’s just a reflection of the self and the lens I see world through. It frames the way I move the world, but it is just a piece of who I am.

    There are days I feel like I am creating myself like a character creation screen.

    I’ve lost of my creative practice with not playing with the band as much and I am trying to to figure out who I am without that, as the was fairly core to my identity for a long time.

    Also, being an aging elder emo and punk is not an easy task. I am caught between what I am supposed to be in my thirties, who I was in my twenties and who exists outside of those things.

    I think I need to great back into making things. Even if they are bad. Even if it hurts to make things makes me feel a little hollow while I do it. I think that’s where I want to have my identity come from.

  • mind blown by “the sum of your life is built from the things you give your attention to” and the impact of that in the attention economy where capturing attention is revenue.

  • mt fuji, 2023

  • current strategy for limiting social media use is to only install those applications on my tablet. if it’s not worth digging it out of my bag. it ain’t worth it.

    tumblr and mastodon can stay though, because y’all are special and cute.

  • took break from the internet and social media for a beat. feeling excited about it again. maybe not social media, but definitely the internet.

  • the first step to a better internet is accepting inconvenience. the internet is messy. stop pretending its a “seemless experience”.

  • bandcamp is great

  • 2000s emo/metalcore was problematic as hell, but give us credit for fucking with gender before we even knew what gender was.

  • approached the part of my thirties where i really appreciate apple’s medications app 🤦

  • on a good path where im exponentially in love with the in the internet and critical of it.