fleeting thoughts.

thinking of discord servers as tiny little campfires that you move between makes me love the platform even more.

one thing the books don’t tell you about enm is how to get from opening up to a cozy dynamic with someone new. so much is written about how manage the feelings of jealousy, scarcity vs. abundance, etc.

but actually finding someone who is looking the same thing as you are is so damn challenging.

i often think of myself at the character screen trying to figure who i am and how present myself to the world, but the trick is who at the character creation is changed by my world as i explore it.

i know this, but often, here i am trying to figure which t-shirt correctly communicates who i am.

my partner just called my habit of adding things to my cart but not checking out “smoking but not inhaling” and that’s going to live in my head forever.

posting content (and creating a following) on platforms you don’t own or control essentially recreates the landlord/tenant relationship online.

~deeppressssiiiooon~

summer cozy is falling asleep on the patio reading neuromancer on a lazy sunday evening.

summer cozy is ice cream cones and playing baulders gate 3 w/ my partner after midnight.

sometimes my office feels like such a liminal space, pretty much everyone went remote and every room is empty but full of desks, coffee machines, and places that are meant to be busy.

not sure if this is ~exactly~ cultural capital, but the values of different groups has a big effect on my perception of myself.

with some groups feeling ambitious and wanting to improve myself is celebrated, while the culture of other groups makes me feel subconscious.

is that even the culture of group or just my perception of what each group ~means~?